if you've read my previous entry...

don't worry.

i've snapped out of my childish-ness.

the previous post almost felt like a whine - a little girl's kicking a fuss over a tiny setback in her life.

i look at the entry with distaste.

this is definitely not the furthest i can stretch. i know.

***

anyway, puay yee said "happy birthday" to me today. i almost (in fact i did) thought he was joking, like what he always does.

it turned out that he was really offering a rather random birthday greeting. i finally remembered he couldn't make it for my mini birthday gathering then.

arh, huiting. your boyfriend is so random. *slaps forehead

and so...

this is how it tastes like.

the taste of failure..

darn bittersweet.

i'm too used to things happening the way where i'm in control.

and there, everything which shouldn't go wrong, went wrong. in fact, there was no way i could refute whatever you said.

perfect. perfectly wrong.

but im glad i've learnt it the hard way.

shu juan, 21, tasted her first failure in her life.