shu juan is a marketing student. she loves projects. she always get great project mates and make many friends. until.

XXX

i think it must be my fault. the problem lies with me..

im sorry for not being able to communicate to you well during meetings, since you are always plugged in.

im sorry that i looked like i don't mind, but i mind. i mind everything. is "anything" your favourite pet phrase? i want a project mate, not a dreamer.

im sorry for being so particular, but i don't like it when you give me sub-standard share of work.

i thank you for giving me a prep course of what is in store for me when i'll be working in the future..

XXX

i shan't continue as i don't see a need to harp on this.

i can finally finally breathe (for a while) people! aren't you glad that my blog is alive again. this semester is crap i tell you. the pressing deadlines just make me jaded. utterly jaded.

i spent the night in school just to clear projects. haiz. slept for less than 3 hours i suppose?
*thanks weiee, for letting me have your room everytime i stayover. this time, worse, its a last minute kinda thing.. you are so nice to me! love ya loads!! (:

im currently in a ?? kind of state. im stuck in between the "i'm tired" and "i'm not tired" kinda mode. ha. that perhaps suggest why im still lingering in my school's lab, blogging away.

and i think im getting so attached to the school's lab! dot. just too cold and im kinda freezing.. brr. the other time i was clearing another project, and my group was like doing project till 11pm, the closing time for lab. then we proceeded to canteen to finish it up. cui ar! thank goodness one of them drove. if not got to take cab yeah..

the lab, more affectionately known as the Free Access Lab (FAL), also contain horrific memories of how i was rushing to hand in another proj (see i told you i got loads of projs this sem) before the deadline. that was.. ultimate. and yeah, yet another proj i got to plod and finish up ALONE. or rather, even people like rainbow and huili (who arent taking the module..) plus dc and his friend (who i dont even know!) helped out, and my proj mate just left me with all the mess and left! haiz..

omg. i think im getting incoherent. arh i forgot, i havent ate lunch. and its already dinner time..

i hope i won't concuss/faint.

:)

became an angel for a visually impaired po po.. i held her hand, crossed the road, asked passer-bys for directions to her block (i dont live in the vicinity), warned her of any "obstacles" along the way, and finally led her to her block.. my effort is small i know, but it really makes my day.

:)

was doing proj with 2 friends.. they are amazing. they are on good terms, go out together, have the same ring (www.singleringen.com), have the same ringtone, have the same taste.. but they are NOT together.

this ring actually contains a semicircle within the band. when 2 rings come together, it forms a circle. perfect right? they both have the ring, so it forms a circle, aka a match!

was telling them no one will believe they are not together.. but they just shove it off altogether. what's wrong eh!?

is my perception of "love" and the likes absurdly wrong?

sigh.

projs sapped so much of my life away. urgh. that's it, im going against projs (for a while) and im going to blog blog blog! ha.

dot. my last entry still on cny arh?! lol.. the incredible lapse of time. so much happened lately.. too lazy to describe in words.. and my other kakis should have blogged about them eons ago.. so. pictures galore time! showcasing my first attempt to create collages using windows powerpoint! lol! -_-" im figuring out photoshop now.. stay tuned. :)

yes we are cameradelics. lol. did so many funny things that day.. dont be jealous. ha.

the sweet tooth session at azabu sabo taught me not to judge book by its cover. the bowl of ordinary looking glutinous balls looks.. ordinary. i didnt trust huili's enthusiasm over the bowl of dessert (i forgot what's the name..) initially. but after eating it, trust me. go order. the girls immediately ordered the second bowl to share. ha. its real simple bliss.. oiishi. (:

haha.. ivy! are u singaporean? can you imagine.. she first heard of ban luck in my house eh! lol.. but please, NEVER underestimate the power of BEGINNER'S LUCK. ivy was super lucky eh! and the cards she got were mostly the just-nice-21-points type! haha..

one of the projs that almost killed me. my deadline was wednesday, and this tvc was shot and completed the NIGHT BEFORE. thanks so much my dear kakis! this is when i realise.. i have so many angelic friends who are willing to go all out and help me in times of trouble! ultra grateful. *teary eyes*

ha.. i love the feeling of feeling blissed. (:

p.s. for ganbee's 21st birthday surprise, read it here. poh described the whole process of surprising bee aptly. koh jt, so where are the pics? meant to show the world the unglam, dark and cui side of ganbee! *evil laughter* and yes, i was so super stunned that ganbee elder brother actually talked, entertained and laughed with us! i've been to bee's house for so many years, he NEVER UTTER a word. all along the tk kakis are closer to bee's younger brothers.. (sidetrack: they are damn funny guys.. playing mahjong/blackjack with them never has a dull moment) what's wrong with Mr Gan that day?

lol.. anyway, bow, bee and me went to a ulu KTV at katong to sing! thanks to my sis' recommendation. lol.. it's really cheap, just that you got to bear with the overwhelming cigarette smell when you first enter the lounge. drinks, self help. i like it there for the no-frills package. and the people there are smarter. to prevent people from hogging the room after the singing duration, they might as well just shut the karaoke system. lol!

we shall go there next time okie? (:

happy lunar new year! *shout*

a major event every year.. a must-attend get together. (:

my CNY spirit long diminished, thanks to nonsensical projs that thwarted all my wonderful plans. nonetheless, the tradition of tk kakis bai nian-ing remains. and it must be a chu er. and it got to be huiting's house, lisi's house, followed by pig-out cum mahjong session at mingshu's house.

to mingshu's house.. (: huiting's mum commented that ive changed and grown prettier! *blush*

i so wanna flaunt my biscuit ear studs! yum.

see.. they are taking pics too! lol. anyway i like the lighting for this pic. gee.

my new pumps. with invisible socks. lol.. shocking? totally out of this world? :) my dress sense took a bold change this season. ha.

anyway, i was damn heng for the mahjong session. i was the overall winner leh! got all the nice suites! woohoo~ first time. lol.. then proceed to blackjack. i was the banker. i won the most too. ban luck, ban ban.. so happy la! then lisi and bee were like so high.. the volume was up, our voice got hoarse. ha.

we tried playing with the adults and i think the adults got -_-'' by us. cuz we kept screaming. even though it was a (small, for the adults) bet of $2. lol. exciting la. lol.

then. the rest of my cny break is dumped for proj. hurhur. no life le la.. =(

everything about love*

im a skeptic about this. i don't understand how couples can be couples for a long time. other than the mundane things like watching a movie, dinner, ... what else can you do? ok, you can try the zoo (hotspot among my jc kakis).. but ya? anymore?

pohpoh told me, it's the company that matters. but i feel that once the optimal level of activity between a couple is achieved, happiness drops.. like what is shown in the diagram below:

note: graph is solely based on my personal view. not supported with any scientific proof. do not sue me whatsoever.

i don't know about you, but i think valentine's day is so commercialised. so are you telling me you love your other half a bit more on the 14th feb, and when the clock strikes 12 again, things are back to normal? i keyed orders for v day flowers and gifts, i can't help but to wonder, do they really mean it? or is this an outlet to flaunt your wealth? perhaps the people in the office are comparing whose bouquet is bigger.. so where is the spirit of love?

i don't need someone to give empty promises.

but i do wish for someone who cares for me. someone who is willing to lend me his shoulders when i need to nap in the train and fend off all weird uncles. someone who is willing to see that i can be vulnerable at times. someone who is willing to hear me whine. someone who is willing to hear my repeated grumbles about school. someone who is intelligent and give me witty advices. someone who will not attempt to cross my buffer zone until im willing to reduce it. someone who can tolerate my temperaments.. someone who will towel my hair dry.

he will show me how nonsensical my graph is :)

then i realise.. an elder brother will do the job. haha.

until that someone comes along, im currently happy to have no strings attached.

like finally...

i can take a breather :) albeit short, im contented. felt so great once the accounting quiz was over! not because im confident i'll score, but because i don't have to fret over stupid accounting for the moment :)

outdated updates...

1. a happy Valentine's day to all attached. well, nothing romantic happened to me. how to be romantic with the dumb quiz in mind? lol. but i missed my morning seminar to see the doctor. i finally couldnt tahan my cough.. like. finally. haha.

me: i've been coughing since november..

doc: really? can you tell me when's your recent cough? do not include those that you've recovered from.

me: urh.. just cough lor. like never stop leh. on and off..

doc: there're 3 possibilities. 1. you have cancer.. (me:!) 2. you have TB.. (me: !! not that serious ba..) or 3. you have a sensitive throat (phew. at least this is not a bad alternative, right?)

he went on to talk about the possibilities.. and prescribed 1 week of antibiotics + medication. if i continue to cough, that's it. got to take x-ray for a thorough checkup. sigh. please pray that i just have an ultra-sensitive throat ya?

2. s310 class gathering at Breeks! plus mr z' bday plus shopping = TIRED!
this is the class gathering with the best turnout rate. kudos to nurul for being an amazing organiser. i finally got to see people like meiyan, linyee, sulastri, & nurul! :) then to a dozen places for shopping. marina sq, suntec, raffles s.c., shaw, plaza sing.. glad to see my guy friends being look-conscious. that's a great start! and i love their jap street style jeans from People of Asia! got myself a frilly detailed top too. haha. after much debate with rainbow. lol.

plus.. we were at suntec and we saw the bunch of NUS students raising funds for the needy. lol. we donated 5 bucks and took a pic with their urh.. "moo-moo backdrop"? lol. KOH JT! PIC!! interesting ya. plus got handmade bookmarks too.. :) we even went to the "Wheel of Fortune" water thingy. unusual experience all in all..

anyway, now i know we can WALK to plaza singapura from raffles city shopping centre. but.. im not willing to try the second time! my legs almost gave way from the tiresome shopping + walking! lol. but took pics.. again~ gee. KOH JT I WANT THE PICS TO BE POSTED HERE!! *shout*

3. my VS6 is BACK! :) but reconfigured = all pics, sms, contacts, every single thing - GONE. other than the default settings of the phone that is. sigh. was quite upset initially.. then i thought, why not use this chance to start anew?

4. CNY is round the corner and my room is in total chaos! not my fault. blame it on all the stupid tests, projects, assignments whatnot. ha.

5. confused identity. this guy outside the MRT station just stopped me and asked if im from Ngee Ann (like hello? where did he infer that??!)..

me: huh?!

he: har? don't tell me you're working? (so what if i AM working?!)

me: urh.. im from NTU. *flash a weak smile.. and walked away*

why do i meet all kinds of strange people!? dot.

im crazy

despite the deadlines, despite the topsy turvy PA & FYP registrations.. despite the numerous projects, despite the tests, despite the presentations.. i did irrational stuff:

1. i went to WORK.
as in W-O-R-K. after school till 10plus nearing 11. staring at the dummy terminal for hours, typing and typing away. but boss needs help.. so thought i should help since he's like super nice. lol.. i thought i amazed everyone who knew i went to work. :) i will stretch my limits. i am going to be a workaholic in the making. if my friend who's the same age as me has already OPENed a COMPANY, what's there to complain for a part-timer job like mine?

2. i went SHOPPING
to think i still have the luxury of time to shop. cant imagine how am i going to slog through the rest of the semester. but CNY is round the corner.. so kinda no choice right? haha. what a lame excuse.

3. i am BLOGGING
yeah. enough said.

im aspiring to be like my genius L! :) to be smart, analytical and cuteee! gee.

(i still miss my vs6 so much! :( heard my friend telling me how kaypoh some servicing technicians could be and look at pics *and have a good laugh.. i hope they won't look at inbox though. suddenly felt so intruded. sigh..)

i have no choice but to send my darling away. 1 month. damn it. for a moment i regretted my actions. i can't imagine life without my baby! im so gonna suffer from withdrawal symptoms.. miss you badly :(










AND IT READS:

my dumb vs6 conked up. i have no choice but to send it for repair. 1 month. damn it. i didnt take down the contact numbers. how are my group mates going to reach me? i got no decent phone to use. urgh. i should have live with its craziness.. im so gonna suffer from withdrawal symptoms. miss my handphone so badly :(

so after my oh-so-suay adventure, both of us finally get to settle down for shopping at bugis.

actually this shopping trip is mainly for CNY. with an obligation in mind, hard to shop at ease also. i cant be forcing myself to like something so that i can have something new to wear for CNY right? but seems like year after year, ive been a culprit of the above crime. so i have lots of clothes that were worn only once or twice, during the cny period.

we went People of Asia, and finally! nicey clothes!! i especially like a grey top with very cutesy sleeves. but it looks weird on me. sigh. sad.. thinking of going to PoA in PS soon. at least that outlet is so much bigger, hopefully better.

went bugis street too.. and i bought this pair of.. erm.. pumps. which you will never expect me to wear. lol. its erm unique.. but my mum and sis say im a big weirdo. WTH. *sulks

shopping drains energy ok. or rather im getting old (sighhhh).. so we went De Toast for tea break.

i ordered iced milo, and flashed my matric card for student price. then that cheeky uncle smirked and say, '' You student meh? Don't bluff.. ''

-_-'' me: ''Uh.. I'm in NTU now leh.''

cheeky uncle: ''Ya la! Teaching there right?''

-_-'' me: ''I look that old meh!?''

the uncle chuckled and explained he said that to make us remember his store. cuz no one would question before ma.. DOTS! lame la. afterwhich he will end his statement with ''.. Teacher'' plus an act cute tone.. bah.

then kelvin came. he's one lucky guy can! like when all others complain about how siong NS life is, he gets to treat it like a 9 to 5 job. so we went dinner tog and yes, he NEVER fails to irritate me with his poor impersonation of my dear L!

then the usual shopping around.. then to bugis street again. i bought a pair of denim jeans! and as we were walking, we are looking for different things, like mingshu, she's looking for shoes and bags, im looking for clothes. so.. we got separated!

they were looking for me and i was looking for them. so i just stop at the bus stop. at least i can have a better view of the people streaming out of bugis street (by then, many shops were closing for the day).

cool! spotted kelvin! lol. he chided me for not bring hp out la. like i want to not bring my hp.. so all ends well and yes.. home sweet home. im bushed.

wo shi suay de lo..

typed the entry halfway and poof! gone. urgh. tested and proven.. now i shall type alllll over again! gah.

went out with mingshu yesterday. and it was yi bo san zhe (full of obstacles). before meeting up with her, i was about to go to school for a 2-hr tutorial. so as i was at the bus stop rummaging my bag for the bus pass, to my HORROR, my vs6 was not there!! urgh. its at home! rarrr.

how am i going to contact mingshu and vice versa?!

ok, shujuan calm down.. think of solution can?!

damn, i didnt bring the house keys.
damn, my mummy left out of the house with me.
damnn, i have no idea where my mummy went!
damnnn! i dont remember mingshu's number!

no choice, i got to execute plan b. i will ask my mummy to find mingshu's no and will contact mingshu thereafter.

i board the bus, disturbed. im still feeling upset about not bringing my vs6 out. i thought i remembered! urgh. whole time i was feeling a tad queasy. feels weird when you can't fiddle with the handphone as and when you like it.

determined, i tried to think of somewhere in aljunied with public phones so that i can settle this drama once and for all. but hello? where on earth can you find public phones?

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the MRT station! surprised? i walk past the phone booths ever so often without realising its existence. they are still very necessary, especially for scatterbrains like me.

i walked towards it, pretending to be nonchalant (i bet the other people might be thinking what's wrong with this girl? too cash strapped for a handphone? tsk tsk tsk..), and WTH! its a phone booth for phonecard! who will bring phonecard u tell me? so i got to walk to the other end of the station for the coin (my guess) public phone booth. phew. got it!

it has been eons since i last use the public phone. felt abit uneasy with the lagging mechanism. even after u insert the coin, u got to pause a second for the thingy to prompt you to enter the telephone number.

... my mum's not home yet.

-_-'''

i tried again when i alighted from boon lay mrt station. yeah! got through! i hurriedly jot down the number and dialled for mingshu's number.

''MINGSHU!! i forgot to bring my hp leh!!!''

and guess what?

''You also?! Me too leh! So now I'm at home le la!''

*chuckles of laughter*

the thing is, mingshu suffered similar or worst plight than me. she was already at the mrt station when she discovered that her hp was not with her! so might as well, pon school lor! lol. who can be more suay than us arh? if she didnt go home, we are both phone-less! so? how to shop like that?! lol. that could be the luckiest thing that happened yesterday.

thank you, whoever you are, for your great invention of mobile phones! :)

shopping entry coming up..