finally.

exams is over -- yet i don't feel joy or disappointment, whatsoever.

it frightens me how scary i can be. my i-don't-care attitude is getting out of hand and that's scary. a thousand conflicting thoughts dashed across my mind and yet, i allowed the devil to control me eventually. what kind of crap cognitive dissonance is that. freak.

exams always make me realise what a loner i can be. loner, not lonely. people have cliques to go school/home together. i don't. basically i don't find a need to.. more importantly, i'm afraid that i might run out of topics to talk about. then what? silence? if so i'd rather make do with a hi-and-bye.

to my kakis who smsed me during the exam period.. i'm sorry for the reply turnaround time to be 24hrs (or more). i genuinely forgot to reply most of the time. then i realise if i were to lose that bit of touchpoint, i would be detached from you guys already. and more than often i'm the one not making the effort. sigh.

selfish me.

i promise this to be a short entry. going to have a snooze before heading for another project meeting.

gosh, just finished compiling a video clip over the night.. and still in the midst of designing magazine advertorials for another project. *faint*

my project marathon, sadly, will only end this coming wednesday. 2 major project presentations on the SAME day. when will i ever start mugging?

sigh.

the only consolation is that i enjoy doing my current integrated marcom proj. i get to play the roles of fashion magazine editor, events manager and marcom personnel, all in one! (:

looking forward to my professional attachment in an IMC company this may. hopefully i won't be doing mundane data entry kind of job scope.

...

mind went blank.

ar. i need to snooze. -_-

sequel of our beloved queen's birthday.

behold.

how often do you see bee looking so.. (you fill up the blank)? grab your chance! (:

having loads of fun doing last minute touch-ups for the card, figuring out how to surprise the queen bee. (: and yeah, figuring out how to use the lighter too! hoho.





birthday surprises take a whole load of effort to coordinate and all. luckily 21st birthdays dont come so often. phew.

school stuff (other than projects)

been harping on like a broken recorder about PROJECTS and more PROJECTS. yeah, to add on to my misery, i've got quizzes and tutorials to do too. the accounting module that im taking this sem is killing me.

i hope i won't end up doing this:



or end up giving profs stupid answers like these:







i'm so movie-deprived.
and to think im currently taking a module on CINEMATIC techniques. oh talking about it, this module discusses movies like LOTR, the black and white films like The Seven Samurai by Akira Kurosawa and Citizen Kane. very fun! woohoo. at first i was still worried about not meeting up to expectations since i NEVER watched LOTR (in whole) and the other films at all..


but i took the test, answered as if i know the movie (LOTR) and did quite well for it eh! haha. goes to show how well i can smoke through eh.


seriously, i'd want to devote that few hours to watch LOTR. wonder why i didnt catch the LOTR fever then. the whole production is sooo great. the few hours you see on-screen is the collective effort of a great great dedicated team. its beyond the actors you see like Arwen, Aragon, Legolas and Frodo. really. if you have time too, go watch it again. and take note of EVERY MINUTE detail that are painstakingly set up to immerse the audience into the story. very impressed. (:

so jealous when everyone else are telling me Protege is awesome, Just Follow Law is hilarious. i watched NONE. sad. and now i can't think of any nice movies to watch.

and no, NO MR BEAN MOVIE for me please. i don't understand why people are so amused by him. he scares me by his stupidity. he really SCARES me a whole lot from young. well, perhaps i do pity him for having to act foolishly stupid for so many years.


phantom of the opera. i want watch i want watch i want watch!!!
SIGH.. WHY DO I ALWAYS MISS THE GREAT PRODUCTIONS?!


boohoo. haiz anyway i don't think i have theatre partner to go with. and second, i don't have the time?


sigh.


i'm so s310-gathering deprived. ):
urgh! couldnt go bedok 85 with my bestest kakis. rarr. sad eh.. hope i can make it for the next outing. talking about s310.. oh man. these people are so sweet can. love you guys to bits! (:

when im feeling down and out (thanks to PROJECTS again - getting sick of this word), they encourage and cheer me on. they really helped me alot through this sem. i feel really very blessed to have kakis like them. loads of thanks people..


especially my self-proclaimed manager, mr liu, who will take note of changes in my msn nick and message to make me feel better. appreciate the effort of hearing me complain and complain.. thanks loads.


guys, i will not falter. will persevere on. (:

shu juan is a marketing student. she loves projects. she always get great project mates and make many friends. until.

XXX

i think it must be my fault. the problem lies with me..

im sorry for not being able to communicate to you well during meetings, since you are always plugged in.

im sorry that i looked like i don't mind, but i mind. i mind everything. is "anything" your favourite pet phrase? i want a project mate, not a dreamer.

im sorry for being so particular, but i don't like it when you give me sub-standard share of work.

i thank you for giving me a prep course of what is in store for me when i'll be working in the future..

XXX

i shan't continue as i don't see a need to harp on this.

i can finally finally breathe (for a while) people! aren't you glad that my blog is alive again. this semester is crap i tell you. the pressing deadlines just make me jaded. utterly jaded.

i spent the night in school just to clear projects. haiz. slept for less than 3 hours i suppose?
*thanks weiee, for letting me have your room everytime i stayover. this time, worse, its a last minute kinda thing.. you are so nice to me! love ya loads!! (:

im currently in a ?? kind of state. im stuck in between the "i'm tired" and "i'm not tired" kinda mode. ha. that perhaps suggest why im still lingering in my school's lab, blogging away.

and i think im getting so attached to the school's lab! dot. just too cold and im kinda freezing.. brr. the other time i was clearing another project, and my group was like doing project till 11pm, the closing time for lab. then we proceeded to canteen to finish it up. cui ar! thank goodness one of them drove. if not got to take cab yeah..

the lab, more affectionately known as the Free Access Lab (FAL), also contain horrific memories of how i was rushing to hand in another proj (see i told you i got loads of projs this sem) before the deadline. that was.. ultimate. and yeah, yet another proj i got to plod and finish up ALONE. or rather, even people like rainbow and huili (who arent taking the module..) plus dc and his friend (who i dont even know!) helped out, and my proj mate just left me with all the mess and left! haiz..

omg. i think im getting incoherent. arh i forgot, i havent ate lunch. and its already dinner time..

i hope i won't concuss/faint.

:)

became an angel for a visually impaired po po.. i held her hand, crossed the road, asked passer-bys for directions to her block (i dont live in the vicinity), warned her of any "obstacles" along the way, and finally led her to her block.. my effort is small i know, but it really makes my day.

:)

was doing proj with 2 friends.. they are amazing. they are on good terms, go out together, have the same ring (www.singleringen.com), have the same ringtone, have the same taste.. but they are NOT together.

this ring actually contains a semicircle within the band. when 2 rings come together, it forms a circle. perfect right? they both have the ring, so it forms a circle, aka a match!

was telling them no one will believe they are not together.. but they just shove it off altogether. what's wrong eh!?

is my perception of "love" and the likes absurdly wrong?

sigh.

projs sapped so much of my life away. urgh. that's it, im going against projs (for a while) and im going to blog blog blog! ha.

dot. my last entry still on cny arh?! lol.. the incredible lapse of time. so much happened lately.. too lazy to describe in words.. and my other kakis should have blogged about them eons ago.. so. pictures galore time! showcasing my first attempt to create collages using windows powerpoint! lol! -_-" im figuring out photoshop now.. stay tuned. :)

yes we are cameradelics. lol. did so many funny things that day.. dont be jealous. ha.

the sweet tooth session at azabu sabo taught me not to judge book by its cover. the bowl of ordinary looking glutinous balls looks.. ordinary. i didnt trust huili's enthusiasm over the bowl of dessert (i forgot what's the name..) initially. but after eating it, trust me. go order. the girls immediately ordered the second bowl to share. ha. its real simple bliss.. oiishi. (:

haha.. ivy! are u singaporean? can you imagine.. she first heard of ban luck in my house eh! lol.. but please, NEVER underestimate the power of BEGINNER'S LUCK. ivy was super lucky eh! and the cards she got were mostly the just-nice-21-points type! haha..

one of the projs that almost killed me. my deadline was wednesday, and this tvc was shot and completed the NIGHT BEFORE. thanks so much my dear kakis! this is when i realise.. i have so many angelic friends who are willing to go all out and help me in times of trouble! ultra grateful. *teary eyes*

ha.. i love the feeling of feeling blissed. (:

p.s. for ganbee's 21st birthday surprise, read it here. poh described the whole process of surprising bee aptly. koh jt, so where are the pics? meant to show the world the unglam, dark and cui side of ganbee! *evil laughter* and yes, i was so super stunned that ganbee elder brother actually talked, entertained and laughed with us! i've been to bee's house for so many years, he NEVER UTTER a word. all along the tk kakis are closer to bee's younger brothers.. (sidetrack: they are damn funny guys.. playing mahjong/blackjack with them never has a dull moment) what's wrong with Mr Gan that day?

lol.. anyway, bow, bee and me went to a ulu KTV at katong to sing! thanks to my sis' recommendation. lol.. it's really cheap, just that you got to bear with the overwhelming cigarette smell when you first enter the lounge. drinks, self help. i like it there for the no-frills package. and the people there are smarter. to prevent people from hogging the room after the singing duration, they might as well just shut the karaoke system. lol!

we shall go there next time okie? (:

happy lunar new year! *shout*

a major event every year.. a must-attend get together. (:

my CNY spirit long diminished, thanks to nonsensical projs that thwarted all my wonderful plans. nonetheless, the tradition of tk kakis bai nian-ing remains. and it must be a chu er. and it got to be huiting's house, lisi's house, followed by pig-out cum mahjong session at mingshu's house.

to mingshu's house.. (: huiting's mum commented that ive changed and grown prettier! *blush*

i so wanna flaunt my biscuit ear studs! yum.

see.. they are taking pics too! lol. anyway i like the lighting for this pic. gee.

my new pumps. with invisible socks. lol.. shocking? totally out of this world? :) my dress sense took a bold change this season. ha.

anyway, i was damn heng for the mahjong session. i was the overall winner leh! got all the nice suites! woohoo~ first time. lol.. then proceed to blackjack. i was the banker. i won the most too. ban luck, ban ban.. so happy la! then lisi and bee were like so high.. the volume was up, our voice got hoarse. ha.

we tried playing with the adults and i think the adults got -_-'' by us. cuz we kept screaming. even though it was a (small, for the adults) bet of $2. lol. exciting la. lol.

then. the rest of my cny break is dumped for proj. hurhur. no life le la.. =(

everything about love*

im a skeptic about this. i don't understand how couples can be couples for a long time. other than the mundane things like watching a movie, dinner, ... what else can you do? ok, you can try the zoo (hotspot among my jc kakis).. but ya? anymore?

pohpoh told me, it's the company that matters. but i feel that once the optimal level of activity between a couple is achieved, happiness drops.. like what is shown in the diagram below:

note: graph is solely based on my personal view. not supported with any scientific proof. do not sue me whatsoever.

i don't know about you, but i think valentine's day is so commercialised. so are you telling me you love your other half a bit more on the 14th feb, and when the clock strikes 12 again, things are back to normal? i keyed orders for v day flowers and gifts, i can't help but to wonder, do they really mean it? or is this an outlet to flaunt your wealth? perhaps the people in the office are comparing whose bouquet is bigger.. so where is the spirit of love?

i don't need someone to give empty promises.

but i do wish for someone who cares for me. someone who is willing to lend me his shoulders when i need to nap in the train and fend off all weird uncles. someone who is willing to see that i can be vulnerable at times. someone who is willing to hear me whine. someone who is willing to hear my repeated grumbles about school. someone who is intelligent and give me witty advices. someone who will not attempt to cross my buffer zone until im willing to reduce it. someone who can tolerate my temperaments.. someone who will towel my hair dry.

he will show me how nonsensical my graph is :)

then i realise.. an elder brother will do the job. haha.

until that someone comes along, im currently happy to have no strings attached.

like finally...

i can take a breather :) albeit short, im contented. felt so great once the accounting quiz was over! not because im confident i'll score, but because i don't have to fret over stupid accounting for the moment :)

outdated updates...

1. a happy Valentine's day to all attached. well, nothing romantic happened to me. how to be romantic with the dumb quiz in mind? lol. but i missed my morning seminar to see the doctor. i finally couldnt tahan my cough.. like. finally. haha.

me: i've been coughing since november..

doc: really? can you tell me when's your recent cough? do not include those that you've recovered from.

me: urh.. just cough lor. like never stop leh. on and off..

doc: there're 3 possibilities. 1. you have cancer.. (me:!) 2. you have TB.. (me: !! not that serious ba..) or 3. you have a sensitive throat (phew. at least this is not a bad alternative, right?)

he went on to talk about the possibilities.. and prescribed 1 week of antibiotics + medication. if i continue to cough, that's it. got to take x-ray for a thorough checkup. sigh. please pray that i just have an ultra-sensitive throat ya?

2. s310 class gathering at Breeks! plus mr z' bday plus shopping = TIRED!
this is the class gathering with the best turnout rate. kudos to nurul for being an amazing organiser. i finally got to see people like meiyan, linyee, sulastri, & nurul! :) then to a dozen places for shopping. marina sq, suntec, raffles s.c., shaw, plaza sing.. glad to see my guy friends being look-conscious. that's a great start! and i love their jap street style jeans from People of Asia! got myself a frilly detailed top too. haha. after much debate with rainbow. lol.

plus.. we were at suntec and we saw the bunch of NUS students raising funds for the needy. lol. we donated 5 bucks and took a pic with their urh.. "moo-moo backdrop"? lol. KOH JT! PIC!! interesting ya. plus got handmade bookmarks too.. :) we even went to the "Wheel of Fortune" water thingy. unusual experience all in all..

anyway, now i know we can WALK to plaza singapura from raffles city shopping centre. but.. im not willing to try the second time! my legs almost gave way from the tiresome shopping + walking! lol. but took pics.. again~ gee. KOH JT I WANT THE PICS TO BE POSTED HERE!! *shout*

3. my VS6 is BACK! :) but reconfigured = all pics, sms, contacts, every single thing - GONE. other than the default settings of the phone that is. sigh. was quite upset initially.. then i thought, why not use this chance to start anew?

4. CNY is round the corner and my room is in total chaos! not my fault. blame it on all the stupid tests, projects, assignments whatnot. ha.

5. confused identity. this guy outside the MRT station just stopped me and asked if im from Ngee Ann (like hello? where did he infer that??!)..

me: huh?!

he: har? don't tell me you're working? (so what if i AM working?!)

me: urh.. im from NTU. *flash a weak smile.. and walked away*

why do i meet all kinds of strange people!? dot.

im crazy

despite the deadlines, despite the topsy turvy PA & FYP registrations.. despite the numerous projects, despite the tests, despite the presentations.. i did irrational stuff:

1. i went to WORK.
as in W-O-R-K. after school till 10plus nearing 11. staring at the dummy terminal for hours, typing and typing away. but boss needs help.. so thought i should help since he's like super nice. lol.. i thought i amazed everyone who knew i went to work. :) i will stretch my limits. i am going to be a workaholic in the making. if my friend who's the same age as me has already OPENed a COMPANY, what's there to complain for a part-timer job like mine?

2. i went SHOPPING
to think i still have the luxury of time to shop. cant imagine how am i going to slog through the rest of the semester. but CNY is round the corner.. so kinda no choice right? haha. what a lame excuse.

3. i am BLOGGING
yeah. enough said.

im aspiring to be like my genius L! :) to be smart, analytical and cuteee! gee.

(i still miss my vs6 so much! :( heard my friend telling me how kaypoh some servicing technicians could be and look at pics *and have a good laugh.. i hope they won't look at inbox though. suddenly felt so intruded. sigh..)